Day 140 was my birthday. I had a brunch with friends in the late morning/afternoon and then my parents came to town and we went out for wine and appetizers in the evening. Both were delightful and enjoyable, but I think the fact I turned 27 actually means something to me.
As I said it to a friend, it is the first age at which I truly feel like a woman. Like I've crossed out of the weird period of being fresh out of college. Surely I'm still a "young adult" but I guess this is the first time of being comfortable with being a woman instead of a girl.
I would say all girls are women - young women in college and so on - but there is something different about acknowledging that and feeling comfortable to embrace saying, "I am a woman." I wonder if it is the same for men - with terms like "guy" being so applicable at so many ages, at what point does a male look and confidently and comfortably say "I am a man?" (Aside from when he's making some macho point/sarcastic remark.)
I've learned that as life goes on, our exposure to pain is increased, we learn more, and I, personally, find myself "dealing" with life more. Simultaneously, I love myself more and know more of who I am and what I want in life. I want to be someone that is seen to be caring and generous towards others - and help others in their happiness. I do not want to be a part of the underlying current that goes beneath so many of us in judgment and disrespect. I want to see the good in people rather than vent about the bad (definitely hard sometimes, but something I want, to be sure).
I felt more pain in my 26th year than ever in my life - but it reawakened a creative side that enabled me to write music, and it helped me to really reflect on what I'm doing with myself - what is important -and how to really seek out living the way I want to live.
All this to say, I'm quite excited about the year to come. Something about 27 just has that nice ring to it.... so I'll take it.
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