Yeah, Speech & Debate may seem odd to people but... I can't hide the fact I'm a nerd. In high school I did speech for a few years and debate for one year - pretty sure it's where I developed a lot of my cordial, friendly debate skills. Today I went and judged a debate round at the Montana Speech & Debate Tournament. I judged a few months ago - some speech and some debate - and was reminded how fantastic these extra-curricular activities can enrich the lives of high schoolers. I would even go so far as to say it helps participants to be met with more success later in life.
Anyway, today's judging brought me back to that again and I found myself smirking at the sassier of the debaters with her questions and responses. I'm definitely an advocate for speech & debate. Regardless of how nerdy it may seem.
Friday, January 31, 2014
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Day 40: Passing
I left this title a little more ambiguous on purpose because I like a few different types of passing...
First off, today I got the results for my Personal Training Final Exam and... I passed! So that's great. Now to finish my other test for Fitness Nutrition and also pass that would make me REALLY happy. Anyway, that was delightful.
Secondly, I've learned that while driving I am the person that loves to pass cars and scream "WOOHOO" while going by. I don't know why but it gives me a rush. I also have some weird need inside of me that wants to be at the head of a line - while walking, while cycling, while driving and... pretty much everywhere. I mean, I can stand in a line, but if I'm moving and have the opportunity to pass people, I definitely will. I like to think it's because I'm from Montana and have been spoiled with constantly open roads, but nonetheless it is the way I've become.
Lastly, I don't play any sports but whenever someone asks me if I want to play frisbee or throw a baseball back and forth - or anything along these lines, I like to take advantage. While I can catch and throw a baseball or a frisbee, in soccer I tend to pass the minute I get the ball because, well, if I'm being honest, I can't dribble. I'm sure the same can be said for basketball. (Note: Unfortunately, I am pretty much entirely inept at throwing footballs.) So I like passing.
I also love that passing can refer to so many different things I like. All provoked by that test. Now back to studying so I might pass the next...
First off, today I got the results for my Personal Training Final Exam and... I passed! So that's great. Now to finish my other test for Fitness Nutrition and also pass that would make me REALLY happy. Anyway, that was delightful.
Secondly, I've learned that while driving I am the person that loves to pass cars and scream "WOOHOO" while going by. I don't know why but it gives me a rush. I also have some weird need inside of me that wants to be at the head of a line - while walking, while cycling, while driving and... pretty much everywhere. I mean, I can stand in a line, but if I'm moving and have the opportunity to pass people, I definitely will. I like to think it's because I'm from Montana and have been spoiled with constantly open roads, but nonetheless it is the way I've become.
Lastly, I don't play any sports but whenever someone asks me if I want to play frisbee or throw a baseball back and forth - or anything along these lines, I like to take advantage. While I can catch and throw a baseball or a frisbee, in soccer I tend to pass the minute I get the ball because, well, if I'm being honest, I can't dribble. I'm sure the same can be said for basketball. (Note: Unfortunately, I am pretty much entirely inept at throwing footballs.) So I like passing.
I also love that passing can refer to so many different things I like. All provoked by that test. Now back to studying so I might pass the next...
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Day 39: Getting Stuff Done
"The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time." -Abraham Lincoln
Oh man, well it comes back to that crossing things off a list thing - it feels SO good.
Today I was able to cross of paying some bills:
...and hopefully by the end of the night I will be able to say I completed the final exam for me to become a personal trainer. I still have to finish another exam before Sunday to get certified in fitness nutrition, but it feels good to almost have one of the exams done!
Oh man, how excited I am for the feeling of getting these things done and crossing them off my list.
When there is a lot on which to focus it is far too easy to be paralyzed. So it is my hope that others may also find joy in accomplishing tasks one at a time, making decisions one at a time, and living each day one at a time.
Oh man, well it comes back to that crossing things off a list thing - it feels SO good.
Today I was able to cross of paying some bills:
- Insurance
- Credit Card
- Student Loan
...and hopefully by the end of the night I will be able to say I completed the final exam for me to become a personal trainer. I still have to finish another exam before Sunday to get certified in fitness nutrition, but it feels good to almost have one of the exams done!
Oh man, how excited I am for the feeling of getting these things done and crossing them off my list.
When there is a lot on which to focus it is far too easy to be paralyzed. So it is my hope that others may also find joy in accomplishing tasks one at a time, making decisions one at a time, and living each day one at a time.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Day 38: Scenic Drives
Having driven all over the United States, I've found areas that I find stunning and areas that just can't hold my attention, so it's nice when states offer new and beautiful scenery to my world.
Today I drove from Seattle over to Montana - a drive I've made previously but I always seem to see new things. Washington State has the mountains with Snoqualmie pass driving right through, a variety of trees representing different elevations, as well as different climates throughout the whole state.
As I entered Montana I was in familiar territory, but it never gets old driving along the Clark Fork River through the mountains and past the abundant and interesting wildlife.
Many of my drives have offered some wonderful scenes and I find myself in awe at how remarkable and wonderful the earth can be.
Today I drove from Seattle over to Montana - a drive I've made previously but I always seem to see new things. Washington State has the mountains with Snoqualmie pass driving right through, a variety of trees representing different elevations, as well as different climates throughout the whole state.
As I entered Montana I was in familiar territory, but it never gets old driving along the Clark Fork River through the mountains and past the abundant and interesting wildlife.
Many of my drives have offered some wonderful scenes and I find myself in awe at how remarkable and wonderful the earth can be.
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| Snoqualmie Pass |
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Monday, January 27, 2014
Day 37
14 Signs You're Really Happy (And How to Stay That Way)
I saw this article a few days ago and found it interesting as it was some sort of scale on which to weigh my happiness. I don't believe we all fit into the same boxes and not all of this list of 14 items could truly represent everybody, but it is a good thought-provoker anyway.
I believe my favorite on the list is the first thing it mentions - sharing your happiness with others. I think I found myself becoming more and more bitter at humanity in the recent years as we are always measuring ourselves against others. Not only are we measuring but we are looking for ways that we might be "better." I appreciate the people that want to bring people along with their success instead of leave them behind, and the people that want to encourage others in their endeavors, even if the same endeavors as their own, rather than deter them as a competitor or hindrance.
I hope that I can be an encourager and supporter - as I've said before, all are deserving of support.
I saw this article a few days ago and found it interesting as it was some sort of scale on which to weigh my happiness. I don't believe we all fit into the same boxes and not all of this list of 14 items could truly represent everybody, but it is a good thought-provoker anyway.
I believe my favorite on the list is the first thing it mentions - sharing your happiness with others. I think I found myself becoming more and more bitter at humanity in the recent years as we are always measuring ourselves against others. Not only are we measuring but we are looking for ways that we might be "better." I appreciate the people that want to bring people along with their success instead of leave them behind, and the people that want to encourage others in their endeavors, even if the same endeavors as their own, rather than deter them as a competitor or hindrance.
I hope that I can be an encourager and supporter - as I've said before, all are deserving of support.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Day 36: Sun
I love the sun. Deceptive and cold sun or warm and skin-kissing sun, I just love it.
Someone once called me a "child of the light" after seeing how different my attitudes and outlooks on life were after the sun came out in the midst of some cloudy days. I've always known I love the sun, which is one reason I was drawn to move to Colorado - 300 days of sun!
The last 3.5 weeks have been spent in Seattle and Portland in efforts to see if I might be able to handle move back towards the Pacific Northwest, as I do miss the culture but do not miss the rain and bone chilling cold. Crazily, the sun has been out for many of the days I've been here. I want to complain that the Northwest is teasing me, since I have bitter memories of depressing, relentless rain, but it's been so delightful and beautiful.
The folks here say to take Vitamin D and sit under a sun lamp (both of which I did in the past), but nothing beats being able to see the sky and the sun on a regular basis. I think most can relate to this but it's too often taken for granted - especially in places like Colorado.
I suppose I am a "child of the light," as projected, and I am beyond content with the amount of sun that has graced my life recently.
Someone once called me a "child of the light" after seeing how different my attitudes and outlooks on life were after the sun came out in the midst of some cloudy days. I've always known I love the sun, which is one reason I was drawn to move to Colorado - 300 days of sun!
The last 3.5 weeks have been spent in Seattle and Portland in efforts to see if I might be able to handle move back towards the Pacific Northwest, as I do miss the culture but do not miss the rain and bone chilling cold. Crazily, the sun has been out for many of the days I've been here. I want to complain that the Northwest is teasing me, since I have bitter memories of depressing, relentless rain, but it's been so delightful and beautiful.
The folks here say to take Vitamin D and sit under a sun lamp (both of which I did in the past), but nothing beats being able to see the sky and the sun on a regular basis. I think most can relate to this but it's too often taken for granted - especially in places like Colorado.
I suppose I am a "child of the light," as projected, and I am beyond content with the amount of sun that has graced my life recently.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Day 35: Unique Ice Cream
I'm not sure whether it was watching chefs make weird ice cream flavors on Iron Chef or the first trip I had to a unique ice cream shop in San Francisco, but at some point I became pretty excited about ice cream.
Not just ice cream... but unique ice cream.
The first place I went was Humphrey Slocombe in San Francisco. They only had a few flavors available - perhaps 7 and I ended up getting Secret Breakfast but they had Salt & Pepper amongst many other interesting flavors. This was just the beginning of this new obsession with ice cream shops.
Once I moved to Denver I discovered Sweet Action where I knew I could never go wrong with Stranahan's Whiskey Brickle but love to get other flavors, vegan and regular alike, as they are constantly changing with keeping some consistent favorites.
Denver also had Little Man Ice Cream which had capitalized on unique flavors - and adding salt to some normal flavors. Salted Oreo quickly became a favorite of mine. It's also a lot of ice cream for little money and the establishment is a giant milk jug:
As I traveled through Nashville I tried Jeni's which has grown after its start in Columbus, OH. They were so excited to share their flavors when I was trying them that I would ask to try something and at the same time they would hand me another spoon with something similar. They would also describe the flavors and what they pair with. They also create specialty toppings, which I thought was fairly clever as they would offer texture and new flavor additions.
In Portland Salt & Straw is the shop that has the line out the door even when it's cold outside. I think I've only gotten the same flavor once there because they always have something new to offer with their standard flavors. One of my favorites is the Honey Lavender, but the Olive Oil pairs nicely with most of the other flavors.
The other place in Portland I love is Cool Moon, which I would say is drastically over shadowed by Salt & Straw. I walked there tonight, through the cold and ended up getting some coconut sorbet. In the past I've gone with a Kulfi flavor they offer which is a pistachio ice cream with cardamom.
Anyway, I love ice cream and am constantly searching for cool, unique flavors to try. I'm glad to see homemade ice cream shops opening in even my hometown in Montana and even more glad to see they are experimenting with fun flavors.
*note: all of the names of the ice cream spots are links to their websites
**if you happen to have more suggestions on ice cream places I should try, please let me know!
Day 34: Piercings
A lot of happy things happened today but I definitely want to address the new piercing I got:
It's a daith piercing, it hurt, and I'm nervous for the healing process - but also stoked.
Today also included belly laughs and good conversations with lovely friends from college. Delightful indeed.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Day 33: Getting a Good Parking Spot
Some people do this:
I do not. But in cities many places have a time limit to park and also require payment.
The apartment at which I'm staying tonight has one row of free street parking that is generally occupied in full - and was when I got here. I parked in a zone that would require me to get up early and pay for the maximum time in the morning thinking I'd just set an alarm to make sure I paid on time but that's when my luck struck and a girl got into her car from the free parking side of the street and left. I continued to gather things until she was gone (because I didn't want to be that girl), quickly threw my things back in the car and backed up and into the newly vacant parking spot (because I am that girl).
I do not. But in cities many places have a time limit to park and also require payment.
The apartment at which I'm staying tonight has one row of free street parking that is generally occupied in full - and was when I got here. I parked in a zone that would require me to get up early and pay for the maximum time in the morning thinking I'd just set an alarm to make sure I paid on time but that's when my luck struck and a girl got into her car from the free parking side of the street and left. I continued to gather things until she was gone (because I didn't want to be that girl), quickly threw my things back in the car and backed up and into the newly vacant parking spot (because I am that girl).
It's a silly thing, but I feel like I won the lottery. Now I do not have to wake early for any obligatory reasons! Hooray for free parking spots!
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Day 32: Choral Music
The recent craze of a cappella music has been interesting for someone that grew up going to an a cappella church and then sang in many choirs through high school and college. I find the craze good, in that it's created an awareness that a cappella is legit (yes, I just used "legit"), but bad in that what has been presented doesn't even get close to the possibilities of what a good blend of voices has to offer.
Today I had the opportunity to sit in on a choir rehearsal for one of the choirs I was in during college. It was magnificent to hear the pure blends of these voices coming together in clusters and chords. There is an unexplainable energy released when a high quality choral group performs a piece of good choral literature - and I love it.
If you are so inclined here are some recordings of pieces I love from composers I enjoy.
And... I am in this one. Not a great recording, but it's still cool.
As the my former choral director spoke to the current choir he spoke to them about blend... "Lose your voice in your neighbor's voice." And what a fantastic thing when a group can do that.
As the my former choral director spoke to the current choir he spoke to them about blend... "Lose your voice in your neighbor's voice." And what a fantastic thing when a group can do that.
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Also from today... This face:
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Day 31: Old Friends That Feel Like Family
Over the last 6 months I've had the wonderful privilege to see a multitude of friends across the nation - some from childhood, high school, college and post college all now into their adulthood. Nothing quite compares to the feeling of seeing those who just feel like family.
I've thought this on numerous occasions leading up to tonight but tonight really drove it home for me. I had dinner with a couple of families who have had children that I've seen grow in reality but also an immense amount of growth I've seen has been through technological means. To see the kids and be in their houses and eat a good meal - bliss.
I suppose that also goes to show the importance of meals, homes, and depth of relationship. I'm extremely thankful for all of the individuals that have hosted me (I've stayed in 30+ places and seen over one hundred people in the last while during my travels).
Hospitality is something I hope to be able to show to others with a home. I imagine that when the day comes that I am able to show such generosity will also make me quite happy.
I've thought this on numerous occasions leading up to tonight but tonight really drove it home for me. I had dinner with a couple of families who have had children that I've seen grow in reality but also an immense amount of growth I've seen has been through technological means. To see the kids and be in their houses and eat a good meal - bliss.
I suppose that also goes to show the importance of meals, homes, and depth of relationship. I'm extremely thankful for all of the individuals that have hosted me (I've stayed in 30+ places and seen over one hundred people in the last while during my travels).
Hospitality is something I hope to be able to show to others with a home. I imagine that when the day comes that I am able to show such generosity will also make me quite happy.
Monday, January 20, 2014
Day 30: The Internet
If you haven't noticed, lately I haven't really had access to the Internet.
Sometimes the absence of something reminds me how much I enjoy it and have perhaps taken it for granted...
So I miss it. Can't wait to post on my computer again!
On YouTube:
The History of the Internet (2009)
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p.s. GEORGIA FONT! On my phone I can't select fonts or post things the way I'd like... so when I come online and see the hideous font it has chosen... well, I'm thankful I can come back and edit it to be Georgia.
The History of the Internet (2009)
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p.s. GEORGIA FONT! On my phone I can't select fonts or post things the way I'd like... so when I come online and see the hideous font it has chosen... well, I'm thankful I can come back and edit it to be Georgia.
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Day 29: Games
Have I written about games yet?
I enjoy games. Word games with friends, board games, card games, strategy games, puzzles, and even the occasional video game - though I tend to enjoy watching others play such things more than playing most of the time.
Anyway, I love games and game stores. Most recently I've played a lot of Settlers of Catan, Carcazon, Cards Against Humanity, CatchPhrase, Telepictionary, Small World, word games AND a video game(MotorStorm??) a decent spread but all good. And all happy.
I believe all people should find their game niche and play. I will post a bit more later when I have access to a computer regarding game niches and ways to play to see if it's even worth your while. Until then..... Play games anyway!
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Day 28: Puppies
Let's just cut to the chase, I like puppies. They are SO adorable and fun...
Today's puppy love was provoked first on Facebook - a friend of mine posted a picture of their newest family addition. Some small, fluffy thing stared at me from the computer wagging its tiny tail. (I assume this because 1) the puppy was looking at the camera and 2) the tail was blurry in the picture.) I melted and proceeded to join the endless comments regarding how cute it was.
Later, my friends wanted to go for a walk on this chilly evening in Portland and I will admit I wasn't too excited about it since my ankle has been fairly sore, but I wanted to spend time with my friends so I agreed to go. When we got to the park I saw an area fenced in with many dogs an their owners all standing together watching their dogs.
My friends continued to walk by the fence but I was a little excited and managed to convince them to go watch the dogs with me. In doing so I saw an adorable chocolate covered puff ball in one corner of the fenced area - other dogs gathered around and a large dog attempting to play by batting at the tiny thing. As we walked around we ended up in conversations with dog owners discussing the breeds and their behavioral traits.
Eventually the puppy came near enough to the fence and I ended up in a conversation with the owner - a toy poodle. Lacking the curly hair that has always repelled me from poodles, but showcasing his fluffy fur and winning my attention.
I hope to get a puppy soon, so I'm constantly weighing my options:
Golden Retriever - the dream dog once I get a house.
Shih Tzu - chill, low maintenance dog for now... but small. We grew up with some shih tzus and they are pretty great, though.
French Bulldog - SOMEDAY (because they look like adorable, little aliens) but these guys have some health issues, so we'll see.
Corgi - I don't know why but these dogs make me laugh. Probably because they look funny...
Chiweenie - I have never liked Chihuahuas or Dachshunds but the mix is pretty precious.
Mutt - I had a malamute mix growing up and loved this guy... Mutts are just so lovable. And don't cost a million dollars.
Today's puppy love was provoked first on Facebook - a friend of mine posted a picture of their newest family addition. Some small, fluffy thing stared at me from the computer wagging its tiny tail. (I assume this because 1) the puppy was looking at the camera and 2) the tail was blurry in the picture.) I melted and proceeded to join the endless comments regarding how cute it was.
Later, my friends wanted to go for a walk on this chilly evening in Portland and I will admit I wasn't too excited about it since my ankle has been fairly sore, but I wanted to spend time with my friends so I agreed to go. When we got to the park I saw an area fenced in with many dogs an their owners all standing together watching their dogs.
My friends continued to walk by the fence but I was a little excited and managed to convince them to go watch the dogs with me. In doing so I saw an adorable chocolate covered puff ball in one corner of the fenced area - other dogs gathered around and a large dog attempting to play by batting at the tiny thing. As we walked around we ended up in conversations with dog owners discussing the breeds and their behavioral traits.
Eventually the puppy came near enough to the fence and I ended up in a conversation with the owner - a toy poodle. Lacking the curly hair that has always repelled me from poodles, but showcasing his fluffy fur and winning my attention.
I hope to get a puppy soon, so I'm constantly weighing my options:
I'm so excited for the first puppy addition into my adult life.
Friday, January 17, 2014
Day 27: Bridges
For some reason bridges have been all the rage on the news lately. And by rage, I mean, they are causing controversy. For me, they are causing joy. Whenever I'm riding in a car with someone else and we go over a bridge I tend to be that person that yells "WEEEE!" It's stupid, I know, but hey, it's good to have the excitement of a child at times.
Driving through a large variety of cities over the last several months I've been reminded of the happiness of bridges. Today's drive included several bridge opportunities to see gorgeous views of both Seattle and Portland. I don't know what about it is so exhilarating - the architecture, the fact I'm driving over a mass of water or the fact that it leads to new territory, but it's pretty great.
So cool. I love bridges. "Hold onto your bridges!" (And cheesy jokes, apparently.)
Driving through a large variety of cities over the last several months I've been reminded of the happiness of bridges. Today's drive included several bridge opportunities to see gorgeous views of both Seattle and Portland. I don't know what about it is so exhilarating - the architecture, the fact I'm driving over a mass of water or the fact that it leads to new territory, but it's pretty great.
So cool. I love bridges. "Hold onto your bridges!" (And cheesy jokes, apparently.)
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Day 26: The Blogger App
It seems there are days I don't quite get around to posting on here until late at night. This day in particular has been busy and I actually abandoned my computer for the night elsewhere so I am especially thankful for the blogger app tonight.
I have definitely had many other times where I was thankful for it besides this type of situation. It has an easy layout and makes it easy to update the blog, add pictures from my phone and read posts. It's pretty nifty so I definitely recommend it.
And on the line of pictures... I didn't get a good one but I made an attempt to capture just a glimpse of the city of Seattle with one blast of sunshine hitting the downtown buildings.
It was so exciting to see the sun like that I forgot how to speak for several moments. Yay for the sun!
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Day 25: Space Heaters
The last few days have been bone chilling for me. There are a few things I really don't enjoy in life and one of those things is being cold. It's not that I mind the cold, it's that I mind when I stay cold after being exposed. - I have to make this distinction since I grew up in Montana and experienced the subzero temperatures on a regular basis. Even in Montana I could, and can, survive such temperatures with only one layer, but there is something about the cold in the Pacific Northwest that causes the cold to seep deep within. I blame the humidity.
In efforts to be warm today, I ventured to a coffee shop in hopes of warmth and the ability to focus, I found myself focused until I started noticing how frigid my hands and arms were, then my legs and so on. Eventually I was unable to concentrate and left seeking new atmospheres. I found that no matter where I went I was cold, so I moseyed back to the house at which I've been staying and turned on the space heater in the room I'm sleeping in. I went to the kitchen to get some water, spy on people outside, and pet the cat (who seems to not have fleas??) and when I returned to my room... I think it was the first time I truly smiled all day.
It was warm. It IS warm. Oh my word, how I adore being warm. How I love the space heater... and how content I feel now that I've been able to be warm.
Dear space heater, you've made me quite happy. And dear gracious hosts of this house, thank you for providing a space heater!
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Major happy props to my brother today as well. He's extremely encouraging and supportive of people living their dreams - and also demonstrates pursuit of passions in his own life. He's a cool dude.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Day 24: Zoos
During my travels and various places of residence, I've learned that I love going to the zoo. *Bonus points if it has a dinosaur exhibit! I love watching the animals play and interact and frequently this proximity provokes a deep wonder I feel for the world as a whole.
I've now been to the
- Portland Zoo
- Seattle Zoo
- Denver Zoo
- Bronx Zoo
- I have seen pictures of me as a tiny one at the Calgary Zoo and the San Diego Zoo, however, I have little memory of them.
Today was great because I went with a group of mothers and little kids - and anybody who has gone to the zoo with me on a good day knows I may act like a toddler during some moments simply because I'm excited about one animal or another. The animals were especially playful today and we watched as they chased one another and played. The orangutang in my picture actually was covering himself with a blanket and from above we only saw the blanket and his hands moving. Once around a corner, though, I thought he looked like something out of Star Wars (maybe an Ewok?) wearing a cloak.
I'd still say my favorite zoo experience to date was in March 2013 with my parents at the Denver zoo - so many baby animals, and they also have the illusion of no cage - so much so that monkeys crawl across vines overhead, some monkeys make their way nearly 4 feet away just to grab something out of some water and then scurry back to an island out of reach. But each zoo experience has a good memory and I LOVE ZOOS.
So take note, if you ever want to show me around a new place, take me to the zoo.
Monday, January 13, 2014
Day 23: Wine/Not Having Fleas
It's been a weird day.
I woke up with my alarm and proceeded to fall back asleep - not uncommon with no set schedule these days. When I finally woke up I meandered upstairs realizing I hadn't eaten in over 18 hours. I made some coffee, ate some food, opened my laptop with the intent to be productive but for some reason I couldn't find the motivation.
I noticed weird black things flying up in front of my screen as I was typing and assumed I must have dropped some bizarre substance under the keys, scoffed at my own disgust, and soon enough I noticed it was a bug. I tried to remove it, and in doing so, realized it was a flea.
It catapulted me into a weird wondering if I had fleas. I researched said flea and found it was a cat flea - and I had just been holding a cat, so that made sense... but for some reason I was overcome with flea paranoia.
I turned back to my studies to see if I could move forward and found that I could not focus - on anything. I started drawing hypotheses of why I might not be able to focus:
So... I gave up. I went downstairs and took a long shower hoping that if I did, indeed, have fleas I might be able to clean out some and see that I had them. (I don't have fleas.) I played my guitar for a little while and then decided to try relocating to a coffee shop.
Recommended by a friend, I found my way to "this great coffee shop." Upon walking in, I have never felt more awkward in a coffee shop. It was dead silent with the exception of some light music playing and quite a few people sitting around - all looking at me as though I clearly didn't belong (probably in my head). I don't find quietly trafficked places, like libraries, awkward, but this was just... weird.
Luckily they had wine on their menu. I got a glass, sat down and started to look over some questions I'm supposed to answer and found myself thinking, "Am I just really stupid today?" because again, I felt like I couldn't answer the questions.
So... instead of being annoyed with my inability to concentrate and lack of intellect today... I'm just going to enjoy this wine. And it's delicious.
P.S. I did not drink ANY of the wine before I gave up on the studying thing. So... that was not a part of it.
I woke up with my alarm and proceeded to fall back asleep - not uncommon with no set schedule these days. When I finally woke up I meandered upstairs realizing I hadn't eaten in over 18 hours. I made some coffee, ate some food, opened my laptop with the intent to be productive but for some reason I couldn't find the motivation.
I noticed weird black things flying up in front of my screen as I was typing and assumed I must have dropped some bizarre substance under the keys, scoffed at my own disgust, and soon enough I noticed it was a bug. I tried to remove it, and in doing so, realized it was a flea.
It catapulted me into a weird wondering if I had fleas. I researched said flea and found it was a cat flea - and I had just been holding a cat, so that made sense... but for some reason I was overcome with flea paranoia.
I turned back to my studies to see if I could move forward and found that I could not focus - on anything. I started drawing hypotheses of why I might not be able to focus:
- I'm cold.
- This chair is not right for studying. There is no where else to sit.
- My ankle hurts.
- I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER.
- My throat has a weird pain?
- I might have fleas!!
So... I gave up. I went downstairs and took a long shower hoping that if I did, indeed, have fleas I might be able to clean out some and see that I had them. (I don't have fleas.) I played my guitar for a little while and then decided to try relocating to a coffee shop.
Recommended by a friend, I found my way to "this great coffee shop." Upon walking in, I have never felt more awkward in a coffee shop. It was dead silent with the exception of some light music playing and quite a few people sitting around - all looking at me as though I clearly didn't belong (probably in my head). I don't find quietly trafficked places, like libraries, awkward, but this was just... weird.
Luckily they had wine on their menu. I got a glass, sat down and started to look over some questions I'm supposed to answer and found myself thinking, "Am I just really stupid today?" because again, I felt like I couldn't answer the questions.
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| Bonair Cabernet Sauvignon |
P.S. I did not drink ANY of the wine before I gave up on the studying thing. So... that was not a part of it.
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Day 22: When the Broncos Win
SPOILER ALERT: The Outcome of today's Chargers v. Broncos playoff game is in this post! (Though, if you don't know it already, wahaaaat?)
For a few reasons I decided to start watching football this year - amongst them being the desire for the camaraderie and to be tied to my friends in Denver - which is where I was living the last 2 years. So... naturally, I started watching the Broncos. Call me a band-wagon jumper if you will but I truly had no idea how well they were doing prior to selecting that team, I simply wanted a good Denver connection.
It was a fun season to watch Peyton Manning - whom I had heard of prior to this year, but really didn't know much about - break records left and right, see the longest field goal kicked by Matt Prater, and discover the beautiful,
For a few reasons I decided to start watching football this year - amongst them being the desire for the camaraderie and to be tied to my friends in Denver - which is where I was living the last 2 years. So... naturally, I started watching the Broncos. Call me a band-wagon jumper if you will but I truly had no idea how well they were doing prior to selecting that team, I simply wanted a good Denver connection.
It was a fun season to watch Peyton Manning - whom I had heard of prior to this year, but really didn't know much about - break records left and right, see the longest field goal kicked by Matt Prater, and discover the beautiful,
talented Wes Welker.
I've been traveling the majority of the football season but made a point to watch all of the games - so I've now explored a variety of sports bars and found that Buffalo Wild Wings will usually be a reliable fallback if I can't find anywhere else to go. Today I walked half a mile and watched at a sports bar on the nearby street.
I was surprised to look around and see an abundance of Chargers fans and felt a bit lonely with no other obvious Broncos fans in sight. Soon enough, however, I heard a nearby table of women cheering for the Broncos and I felt the feeling of instant friendship seep in.
The game got close during the 4th Quarter, at which point I was a little stressed, and I heard a Chargers fan say, "I told you they were a 4th Quarter team!" As much as I didn't want to believe his hypothesis and wanted to continue to watch the Broncos win, I still felt a little nervous about the outcome as it approached a one touchdown game in the last 5 minutes.
I ordered another drink and reminded myself that the Broncos had been winning the rest of the game, so it only made sense that they continue to win at that moment. And they did. They kept the score at 24-17 and the game ended with a Broncos Victory!
I left the bar feeling elated, exchanged some high fives with the other Broncos fans, to which the Chargers fans told us to "take that high five elsewhere!" And was on my way.
I almost couldn't wait to talk to some friends about the game - even if they didn't watch it - so I'm fairly confident that the Broncos winning contributes to my happiness.
...I imagine this also has to do with the stress and relief from said stress in any sports situation. It's weird how invested we can get.
I've been traveling the majority of the football season but made a point to watch all of the games - so I've now explored a variety of sports bars and found that Buffalo Wild Wings will usually be a reliable fallback if I can't find anywhere else to go. Today I walked half a mile and watched at a sports bar on the nearby street.
I was surprised to look around and see an abundance of Chargers fans and felt a bit lonely with no other obvious Broncos fans in sight. Soon enough, however, I heard a nearby table of women cheering for the Broncos and I felt the feeling of instant friendship seep in.
The game got close during the 4th Quarter, at which point I was a little stressed, and I heard a Chargers fan say, "I told you they were a 4th Quarter team!" As much as I didn't want to believe his hypothesis and wanted to continue to watch the Broncos win, I still felt a little nervous about the outcome as it approached a one touchdown game in the last 5 minutes.
I ordered another drink and reminded myself that the Broncos had been winning the rest of the game, so it only made sense that they continue to win at that moment. And they did. They kept the score at 24-17 and the game ended with a Broncos Victory!
I left the bar feeling elated, exchanged some high fives with the other Broncos fans, to which the Chargers fans told us to "take that high five elsewhere!" And was on my way.
I almost couldn't wait to talk to some friends about the game - even if they didn't watch it - so I'm fairly confident that the Broncos winning contributes to my happiness.
...I imagine this also has to do with the stress and relief from said stress in any sports situation. It's weird how invested we can get.
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Day 21: Reading (and Books)
“A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies...The man who never reads lives only one.” - George R.R. Martin, A Dance with Dragons
Reading is a place to go when the rest of the world seems unbearable. Into the imagination, into another world, into a safe place where nobody can reach me. It's a nice escape and I enjoy it much more than TV shows or movies, though those certainly have their place as well. I suppose I'm just more drawn to books, as they allow more for me to create for myself.
In the past I've had dry spells where I wasn't reading much and then spells where all I was doing was reading. I didn't even read any of the Harry Potter books until all had been written, and then proceeded to plow through them when I got the flu and was quarantined to my room for a couple of weeks during my junior year of college.
Even so, whenever I have been reading, I've enjoyed it. People ask me what I like to read and I start listing off authors and books and they comment on the wide spread - at which point I let them know that I read pretty much whatever people give to me or has been recommended enough times that I finally give in and read it.
In 2013 I'd gotten back into reading:
While I read all of the Game of Thrones books in succession to one another, the others have all been mixed together - and I've actually held off on reading the Rothfuss books, as there is a third to be written. They are, however, just too great and I'm in the middle of the second book right now.
The next book in line for me is the first of the Divergent Series, but I love collaborating on books and what to read so if you have suggestions, I'm all for them. In fact, if you are so inclined, GoodReads is an excellent resource for sharing books with others based off of your own reviews and interests.
(GoodReads Website)
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Oh... and just for kicks, since this is going around the internet (and it's a list):
16 Books To Read Before They Hit Theaters This Year
Reading is a place to go when the rest of the world seems unbearable. Into the imagination, into another world, into a safe place where nobody can reach me. It's a nice escape and I enjoy it much more than TV shows or movies, though those certainly have their place as well. I suppose I'm just more drawn to books, as they allow more for me to create for myself.
In the past I've had dry spells where I wasn't reading much and then spells where all I was doing was reading. I didn't even read any of the Harry Potter books until all had been written, and then proceeded to plow through them when I got the flu and was quarantined to my room for a couple of weeks during my junior year of college.
Even so, whenever I have been reading, I've enjoyed it. People ask me what I like to read and I start listing off authors and books and they comment on the wide spread - at which point I let them know that I read pretty much whatever people give to me or has been recommended enough times that I finally give in and read it.
In 2013 I'd gotten back into reading:
- The Sigma Series by James Rollins
- The Game of Thrones books by George R.R. Martin
- The Ender's books by Orson Scott Card
- The Name of the Wind books by Patrick Rothfuss
While I read all of the Game of Thrones books in succession to one another, the others have all been mixed together - and I've actually held off on reading the Rothfuss books, as there is a third to be written. They are, however, just too great and I'm in the middle of the second book right now.
The next book in line for me is the first of the Divergent Series, but I love collaborating on books and what to read so if you have suggestions, I'm all for them. In fact, if you are so inclined, GoodReads is an excellent resource for sharing books with others based off of your own reviews and interests.
(GoodReads Website)
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Oh... and just for kicks, since this is going around the internet (and it's a list):
16 Books To Read Before They Hit Theaters This Year
Friday, January 10, 2014
Day 20: Sleep
I'm one of those people that could sleep forever if given the opportunity. I actually slept 11 hours last night and probably could have gone longer had I allowed it. I woke up in a dark, cool room with my down comforter and my lovable pillow and couldn't stop thinking about how much I enjoy sleep. Especially in a cool, dark room.
And this article confirms how it contributes to my happiness:
Scientists Find Women Need More Sleep Than Men
What's interesting is that at night, even when I've only had 5 or 6 hours of sleep the night before, I cannot always fall asleep quickly. I know this is a common theme for people given the amount of memes and quotes that circulate the internet stating such weird facts. And I do think it's got a lot to do with how active, or inactive, the day was as well as emotional and environmental factors coming into play as the time for sleep nears. I'd also wager to say that sleeping too long is equally not good to not sleeping long enough. (My "sweet spot" is probably 7 hours with a regular sleeping schedule and life pattern...)
Nonetheless, I love sleep.
And this article confirms how it contributes to my happiness:
Scientists Find Women Need More Sleep Than Men
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| -The Dalai Lama |
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Day 19: Shameless Flirting
Okay, so I know this may be a controversial idea for some people - as flirting can be dangerous or misleading - but I've always enjoyed flirting with everybody for fun. It has gotten me into trouble at times, but for the most part it makes me laugh and other people smile, so I feel like it's a win-win situation 95% of the time.
Tonight my friend and I went to the grocery store - which is an odd place that I've been hit on quite a bit in the past - and we were talking about flirting with old men along the way. I love old men because they are fun to flirt with - and don't get me wrong, I'm not talking about any man under the age of 60. Perhaps even 70; The men that I've often found are harmless and just like to joke around (as I have absolutely no intention of ever being "the other woman" or "the younger woman" or... anything near such ideas.)
Anyway, my friend was cautioning on the dangers of flirting and how it would be unfair if I were in a relationship to be so flirtatious, so I remarked on how I enjoy flirting with pretty much anybody - men and women alike. Perhaps I just like flattering people and it's not exactly flirting... Anyway! As we got out of the car and were about to walk into the grocery store I said in a resounding voice, "I'll flirt with anybody!"
Conveniently this was the same time some random guy was about to walk into the store and we made eye contact. I made a face to say "Oops! Did I just accidentally almost yell that at you?" And laughed at myself for a moment and we went into the store. I told my friend under my breath how that moment was both funny and potentially awkward when I looked over and he had a little smirk looking at us - which made me laugh even more. Nothing came of it, as we perused the store so no big story here, other than some other people laughing/smiling at the nature of our conversation.
It's moments like these that put the flirting into the happiness category - any story that can make me laugh. And maybe what really makes me happy should be retitled as Stupid Things I Do That Make Me Laugh.
Tonight my friend and I went to the grocery store - which is an odd place that I've been hit on quite a bit in the past - and we were talking about flirting with old men along the way. I love old men because they are fun to flirt with - and don't get me wrong, I'm not talking about any man under the age of 60. Perhaps even 70; The men that I've often found are harmless and just like to joke around (as I have absolutely no intention of ever being "the other woman" or "the younger woman" or... anything near such ideas.)
Anyway, my friend was cautioning on the dangers of flirting and how it would be unfair if I were in a relationship to be so flirtatious, so I remarked on how I enjoy flirting with pretty much anybody - men and women alike. Perhaps I just like flattering people and it's not exactly flirting... Anyway! As we got out of the car and were about to walk into the grocery store I said in a resounding voice, "I'll flirt with anybody!"
Conveniently this was the same time some random guy was about to walk into the store and we made eye contact. I made a face to say "Oops! Did I just accidentally almost yell that at you?" And laughed at myself for a moment and we went into the store. I told my friend under my breath how that moment was both funny and potentially awkward when I looked over and he had a little smirk looking at us - which made me laugh even more. Nothing came of it, as we perused the store so no big story here, other than some other people laughing/smiling at the nature of our conversation.
It's moments like these that put the flirting into the happiness category - any story that can make me laugh. And maybe what really makes me happy should be retitled as Stupid Things I Do That Make Me Laugh.
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Day 18: Natural Light
I'm in Seattle, WA right now to somewhat testing the waters to see if I could handle living here with the perpetual rain. I used to live down in Oregon and eventually the lack of sunshine became a bit too much for me - so I moved to Colorado with the promise of 300 days of sun. It was a good move for my Seasonal Affective Disorder, and whenever I endure a stretch of many days without the sun, I am reminded of this happy inducing element in my life.
When I got here last week the sun was out and the skies were clear - and it was gorgeous, but I knew this was abnormal and requested the rain to return. It returned a few days ago and it's been rainy ever since, but what I noticed today was that despite the overcast dreary feel, there was still a lot of natural light pouring through the windows at the house where I'm currently staying.
So despite not seeing the sun itself, I was delighted in the natural light and thankful for its existence. And in truth, sometimes the overcast days are inspiring.
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| Mount Rainier on 12.5.14 |
When I got here last week the sun was out and the skies were clear - and it was gorgeous, but I knew this was abnormal and requested the rain to return. It returned a few days ago and it's been rainy ever since, but what I noticed today was that despite the overcast dreary feel, there was still a lot of natural light pouring through the windows at the house where I'm currently staying.
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| Random Tree in Seattle 12.8.14 |
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Day 17: Support
An excerpt from a short IM (Instant Message) conversation I had today:
As I reflect on things making me happy, I feel like some of them come down to basic human needs/desires.
I've mentioned before that I'm a musician of sorts, and recently I started writing music with lyrics. It was new territory for me and was unquestionably inspired by emotion and resounding thoughts I had been having. Some comments I would get were that people liked it but would go on to ask me if I could ever write a happy song.
I wasn't really sure how to manage the question because it felt implied that what I was doing would be better if it represented more happiness - which meant that what I was feeling was not adequately acceptable. It caused me to really rethink how people talk to, or about, artists in relation with their work. Art is frequently inspired by emotion, and many artists feel most inspired during the lowest of lows or the highest of highs. For me, I've always been able to relay more in minor musical keys and found myself driven to write when I'm not exactly satisfied with current situations in life.
Nonetheless, I've shared my original songs with various people either by playing them in person or rough recordings, and have felt a majority of support from folks - and dismissal from others who either decided they did not have time to listen or otherwise.
I cannot express the gratitude I feel towards the people who support me. I guess I have gratitude for those who have dismissed me as well, as they've made me acknowledge the supporters that much greater.
I think this quote from Will Smith actually puts it quite nicely:
We all deserve to have support in our lives and it's quite beautiful when we find those who will support us through both low and high times. Do not dismiss the supporters in efforts to win over those who have failed to see your talent. To acknowledge and appreciate those who are present is so much more valuable than using that energy on people who have failed to show a basic human need.
I've mentioned before that I'm a musician of sorts, and recently I started writing music with lyrics. It was new territory for me and was unquestionably inspired by emotion and resounding thoughts I had been having. Some comments I would get were that people liked it but would go on to ask me if I could ever write a happy song.
I wasn't really sure how to manage the question because it felt implied that what I was doing would be better if it represented more happiness - which meant that what I was feeling was not adequately acceptable. It caused me to really rethink how people talk to, or about, artists in relation with their work. Art is frequently inspired by emotion, and many artists feel most inspired during the lowest of lows or the highest of highs. For me, I've always been able to relay more in minor musical keys and found myself driven to write when I'm not exactly satisfied with current situations in life.
Nonetheless, I've shared my original songs with various people either by playing them in person or rough recordings, and have felt a majority of support from folks - and dismissal from others who either decided they did not have time to listen or otherwise.
I cannot express the gratitude I feel towards the people who support me. I guess I have gratitude for those who have dismissed me as well, as they've made me acknowledge the supporters that much greater.
I think this quote from Will Smith actually puts it quite nicely:
We all deserve to have support in our lives and it's quite beautiful when we find those who will support us through both low and high times. Do not dismiss the supporters in efforts to win over those who have failed to see your talent. To acknowledge and appreciate those who are present is so much more valuable than using that energy on people who have failed to show a basic human need.
Monday, January 6, 2014
Day 16: Pillows
I was staying in an airbnb apartment with a large couch covered in pillows when I leaned into the pillows and felt myself become engulfed in comfort. I thought perhaps it was because I was so exhausted but after being given the same feeling tonight by another set of comfortable pillows I am convinced pillows make me happy.
There's just something about sinking into a giant pile of comfy pillows... And I think we all know it. It's like a hug we missed out on from humanity. Ohhhh pillows.
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Day 15: Children
I don't think I can even remember all of the times a child has been my game changer for a day. While traveling I've often found myself most comfortable staying with friends that have children, and even some baby-sitting after a bad day at work has been a most comforting experience.
Sometimes I wonder if it's because I have a baby button (the button that goes off when we feel the desire to have a baby) or some natural motherly instinct that makes me feel contentment around children, and while I can't pinpoint an exact reason, I just know I love being around these youthful spirits.
After watching baby dedications this morning and hanging out with some classic kids (that may, or may not, be adopted nephews to me), I was thinking about how the joy of the children is contagious to adults. People who feel like outcasts in their peer groups can, at times, relate to children in a profound way that reassures them of their value on earth. For some, having a child in the room prompts the reminder that they are setting examples and potentially contributing to the molding of young minds.
While I may be independent and enjoy not having to worry about the needs of another being, I also find satisfaction in feeling I'm useful for a purpose beyond me.
And let's accept it, I also enjoy making faces at them - as they tend to mimic faces, gestures and noises. I can't help but smile way too much for my own good just to see them smile back at me - what a happy moment when they do.
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Also from today... generosity. After spending time with people with a vast array of personalities, some friends of mine bought me dinner, and it actually made me feel so thankful and blessed that I nearly started crying. You just don't know who you'll touch with your generosity or how great the impact will be.
Sometimes I wonder if it's because I have a baby button (the button that goes off when we feel the desire to have a baby) or some natural motherly instinct that makes me feel contentment around children, and while I can't pinpoint an exact reason, I just know I love being around these youthful spirits.
After watching baby dedications this morning and hanging out with some classic kids (that may, or may not, be adopted nephews to me), I was thinking about how the joy of the children is contagious to adults. People who feel like outcasts in their peer groups can, at times, relate to children in a profound way that reassures them of their value on earth. For some, having a child in the room prompts the reminder that they are setting examples and potentially contributing to the molding of young minds.
While I may be independent and enjoy not having to worry about the needs of another being, I also find satisfaction in feeling I'm useful for a purpose beyond me.
And let's accept it, I also enjoy making faces at them - as they tend to mimic faces, gestures and noises. I can't help but smile way too much for my own good just to see them smile back at me - what a happy moment when they do.
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Also from today... generosity. After spending time with people with a vast array of personalities, some friends of mine bought me dinner, and it actually made me feel so thankful and blessed that I nearly started crying. You just don't know who you'll touch with your generosity or how great the impact will be.
Day 14: Reunions
People come and go in our lives passing over a variety of chapters. We categorize our friends based off of implied segments in life: childhood (with sub segments of elementary school, middle school, high schools), college, young adulthood, colleagues, etc. I love these sections, but even more than simply loving their existence, I love to see them come to life again.
Tonight a friend from my closest college friend group got married. (Another wedding to add to my list as well!) It called our group of friends to reunite for the first time in many years. And although we are all in different places doing new things, it's a group that can pick up right where we left off.
These are the sweeter reunions in life. And celebrating the marriage and sharing memories and laughter were great as well.
Friday, January 3, 2014
Day 13: A Car That Runs
Over the last 4 months I've put nearly 7,000 miles on my car driving around the United States. It has had it's share of issues, routine changes, check engine lights, battery stutters and so on... But I am always so thankful when it runs the way it should.
Each time I go to it after it's been locked in a city I am thankful that no windows are broken, when it's cold I'm thankful it starts and produces heat, and even with all of it's issues I've only been stuck on the side of an interstate once - and because I'm an idiot and didn't get gas when I should have.
So... I hope there are many more years with my car and it's functionality.
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